Friendship

Salam, hello & goodmorning. Harini nak update blog. Rasa dah lama sangat tak menulis. Mungkin setahun lebih sudah. Hmmm. Rasa malas & blurr sebab lama tak taip. Okeylah first thing nak update pasal jiwa. Ya, jiwa sangat tak tenang and rasa kacau sangat. Semuanya sebab persahabatan yang special tu. Nak kata special sangat takdelah tapi aku sangat menghargai dia. Perasaan dia semua. Tu yang aku harus fikir. Tapi sayang aku ni suka sia sia kan peluang yang ada. Sebab tu semua jadi macam ni.

Dulu, aku ingat yang aku and dia rapat. Entah sebab macam mana, kitaorang renggang. Hmmmm. Persahabatan tu makin lama makin jauh. Aku membuat langkah yang aku sangat menyesal sangat sangat. Sampai sekarang aku rasa dia belum masih dapat maafkan aku. Aku akui yang aku ni cuai sangat. Sangat bodoh pun ada. Lepas inciden tu pulak, aku terus membatukan diri, taknak mintak maap semua. Pastu, aku buat conversation yang bodoh dengan dia.

Bukan tu je, masalah aku yang kedua adalah aku ni kuat cemburu. Entahlah ek, dengan dia semua feel macam tu. Tak boleh ade yang rapat dengan dia. Sangat sangat pantang. Or maybe yang rapat dengan dia tu, macam okey tak okey. Aku rasa sangat cemburu. Aku tau dia dengan dia rapat, but entahlah. I feel something special between them. Takpelah kadang kadang aku biarkan hati ni layu, janji tengok dia bahagia.

Seandainya engkau ditakdirkan milikku, insha Allah, Dia pasti membuka pintu itu untuk kita berdua. Itu yang aku impikan. But if jodoh aku dengan dia sampai kawan rapat je, itu pun aku rasa cukup bersyukur. Perasaan ni je kott. Takut kehilangan someone yang aku sayang and very hold dear to me. Sekarang persahabtan aku dengan dia macam terumbang ambing jugak but aku kuatkan hati untuk teruskan. Semoga persahabtan kita berdua kekal ke akhir hayat.

p/s; Camne agaknya nanti bila masa depan muncul? :)

Dia

"Aku tak biasa,
Bila tiada kau disisiku,
Aku tak biasa,
Bila tak mendengar suaramu"

Warkah buat dia.

Ya, I tak biasa. But I rela lepaskan you demi orang lain. Since we pun takde apa apa, then what's you waiting for kan? I admit that I am the kind that jealous dengan semua. But itsokayy. I glad that you dah datang in my life. I sayang you sangat sangat. I still remember the memories we had together. I love you for a thousand years :) I hope you takkan lupakan I. I ni memang jenis orang begitu. Hati I ni memang mudah tersentuh. Susah nak expect kan? Sorry for my attitude for you. Sorry if I ade sakitkan hati you, annoying kan you or anythinglah. I am very sorry. Sangat. I tau I bukan yang terbaik, but I dah buat sehabis baik dengan you. I love to take care of you again. I akan selalu ingat kat you.

You the first time we know each other, I rasa sangat serasi dengan you. Entahlah. Among semua orang you are the one. Maybe jodoh kita tak kuat kott. I rasa sayang nak lepaskan peluang tu. Then I rasa I je feel lebih. Hahahah. But itsokayy. I still okay with everything. Pernah you cakap sayang, oh I seribu kali sayang you *okay sila muntah. I entahlah pun tak tahu sangat dengan diri I. I still discover myself. Anything wrong with me, please forgive me okay? You tau kan I camno. I rasa I ingat lagi lagu yang you pernah bagi dekat I. I rasa lagu tu memang sweet. And sekarang pun I tengah dengar lagu tu. I pun pernah bagi you lagu. But tak taulah if you ingat ke tak.

I pun kurang ingat how we met. But peristiwa tu macam sentiasa ada in my mind. If I know that since the beginning I would be troublesome, I would rather stalking you. Im sorry so much. If you ever read this, then we still be friends right? Promise? Okay thats all. I pray that you selalu berbahagia dengan si dia. Dengan insan yang lebih sempurna dari I. InsyaALLAH. Thank you sebab ajar I erti cinta. Thank you :)

Wordless Wednesday

Source: HERE

Life

Hello. I'm back. Well I been here all the times, just lazy to update. Okay as everyone know I'm study at Shah Alam now. One semester have passed and I have a very long holiday. So I been thinking about exam. Yeah hell exam. I don't know why I brought this up, but for me the first final exam at the university in my life feel very alive. Although it is the same as high school, but one thing for sure, I treasure it much. I love the situation when all gather up and doing their best to succeed. I never forgot how I am late for the first paper. All the chaotic and insomnia-situation in my rent house feel very sentimental to me so sudden. I miss those days. Nevermind I'm sure there's lot of time when these situation will there again.

At university, when you're in one course, Im pretty sure there are student who are older then you. I mean the youngest must be 18 I think for taking that special course or something that blablabla and the oldest must be around thirties right? In my course, there are diploma-graduate student, matrix and also the oldest is Abg Ruzainee. I'm talking about those diploma graduates. I'm guessing they have been used to this stuff, I mean university stuff. Notes, lectures and others. And not to forget exam. I thinking how they will study for the exam and hearing lecturers talking all day long.

Well they are experts in those stuffs and unlike me, they had experience all those things before. When taking results, none of them will feel nervous and no they ain't shocked cause they know this is the real deal.But for me, it's nothing too. Just a good news or bad
news. Just like my other exam. Just like I'm taking my other results. All I feel is happy, relieved and anxious of course waiting for the results.

InsideMe

Salam. Entri berbaur sedih and geram. Sebenarnya bukanlah nak burukkan seisapa pun. Tapi hati ni. Biarpun bukan lama, baru je kenal tapi dah jadi macam ni. Aah aku makan hati. Tak dapat aku nak describe dengan kata-kata. Semua jari telunjuk salahkan aku. Aku tau benda tu main-main je, but deep in my heart I take it seriously. Aah memang susah nak berkawan dengan aku. Aku ni hati lain sikit. Cepat sensitif, cepat touching, cepat sentap, bak kata semua cepatlah. Bukan aku nak pendam cuma aku nak luahkan sikit. Aku cuma mintak kat korang, tolong respect aku sikit sebagai kawan. Tolong understand aku yang agak fragile ni. Tolong bagi aku jangan cepat sensitif. Perangai and attitude korang tu buat aku sakit hati. Demi kenangkan persahabatan kita ni, aku cuma tak mampu nak luahkan face to face dengan korang. Hati aku ni kalau korang boleh tengok,dah berjurai-jurai airmata jatuh tau. Korang mana nak fikir benda² tu semua kan? Yang korang tau tu semua gurauan. But jokes have its limits okay? Please jangan cabar aku buat benda-benda tak aku tak suka. Sekali aku tersentap, mungkin persahabatan kita mati. Aku mintak sesangat kat korang, please understand me. Please respect my feelings. Thank you :(

p/s; Aku luahkan semua sebab aku sayang korang.Tu je.

Sekeping Hati

(Gambar yang terasa sangat hot kononnya)
Hello readers,

How are you today?Im feeling great btw :) Cehh,konon feeling-feeling nak sepikinh inglish.Hampeh!Firstly nak cakap dulu sebelum you all baca blog I ni :D Harini I memang tukar style cara I tulis entri.You all nampak kan perkataan yang I guna.I,you all,firstly semuanya inglish.I tau.I harap you all tak kisah.I pun tak kisah.Well,siapa kisah? (who cares?) Oh lagi satu I nak cakap,story I kali ni memang I ikut kata hati.Sebab I hari-hariiiiii takde story.Sebab tu I lebih suka cerita ikut minda I.Terbalik tunggang jadinya.Harap you all sekali lagi tak kisah apa yang I nak membebel.Eh,banyak pulak I punya interodaksyen ni :)

I nak cerita pasal cinta.I nak feeling-feeling romantik hari ni.Harap you all tak termuntah lepas you all baca story I ni (next update maybe I nak tukar perkataan "I" jadi gua pulak) I dah banyak kali jatuh cinta.Ya,banyak kali *dengar lagu Mohabattien (betul ke?Lantaklah) Tapi I rasa semua cinta I ditolak.Oh you all jangan salah anggap.Maksud I cinta dengan manusia.

(Dia memang suka kawan dengan I.Rasa I lah.Source-Tumblr)

I rasa teruja for the first time I jatuh cinta.Kita orang memang BF masa tu.Memang rapat gilalah.I masih teringat masa Form 1 I sayang dia gila vavi.Tapi dia tak tahu.Dia bercinta dengan orang lain.I patah hati.Tapi I tegarkan hati supaya I terus mencintai dia.I tak kisah.Sampai Form 3,I dengan dia begitu rapat.Aah rapat sangat.Sampai apa yang berlaku kita orang seringkali bersama&selalu tukar pendapat dalam satu buku special.I rasa buku tu ada pada dia.Tapi I tak tahu dia simpan lagi ke tak.Sampai Form4 dia pun pindah.And banyak kes pasal dia.I pernah confess pada dia but I guess my love was rejected by her.Thank you :)

(See I told ya!Source-Tumblr)

Kedua,I nak cerita pengalaman I jatuh cinta buat kali kedua.I sayang dia sangat-sangat.Dia kira kwan baik I lah *I ni semua jatuh cinta dengan yang rapat dengan I.Biasalah sebab I dah tau hati budi seseorang tu.Dia ni seorang yang terendy (up-to-date) and sangat comel bila dia ketawa and talking.Mungkin sebab dia berbadan kecil.I kenal dia sejak Form 3.Agaknyalah.I lupa.Tapi masa tu I belum suka kat dia.I tak rapat pun dengan dia.Sampailah Form 4 and Form 5 I suka dia.Ye,I suka dia.Sebab dia ni memang comelcomelcomel *okay sumpah memang cute gila.Plus,dia ni considerate&thoughtful and sangat artistik.I tak pernah confess dengan dia pasal I punya perasaan.Sebab I tau jawapan dia.So,sekarang dia bahagia dengan orang yang dia suka.I gembira untuk dia ^___^

(I memang possessive :D Source-Tumblr)

Seterusnya I jatuh cinta buat kali ketiga.Ya,tidak lama selepas cinta kedua.Malah pengalaman tu masih segar dalam ingatan I.I kenal dia tak lama.I sayang dia pada akhir-akhir masa kita orang bersama.I simpan perasaan terhadap dia.Dia tak tahu.Malah I tak pernah confess dengan dia.I sayang dia tapi dia macam lagi rapat dengan orang lain.I tersangatlah jeles bila dia begurau senda dengan orang lain.Macam dia milik I seorang.I tak kisah orang kata I penting kan diri or tidak.I dont care.I nak cuma dia seorang.Tapi I tau dia takkan suka I sebab dia anggap I sebagai seorang kawan.I tau tu semua.Jadi I simpan perasaan ni untuk I seorang and guess what?Dia dah bahagia dengan orang lain sekarang ni.I doakan dia bahagia okay :)

(I memang suka ikut kata hati even otak I fikir benda lain.Source-Tumblr)

Next,I jatuh cinta buat kali keempat.Ya,seorang yang sangat manis.Sangat sweet omputih cakap.Dia seorang yang mengambil berat and selalu sangat faham kehendak I.Ya,kita orang bercouple tak lama lepas I kenal dengan dia.I sayang sangat dengan dia.Acapkali dia bermain dalam fikiran I.Kita orang selalu text and dia totally karing gila.I suka dia.I sayang dia.Tapi sayang hubungan I dengan dia tak lama.Sebab diri I.I lah puncanya (lah,macam drama pulak kan you all) Tapi betul I yang salah.I memang tak nafikan pasal tu.I salah sangat pada dia *I tengah dengar lagu ni pulak. You,Im sorry for what I've done and thank you for giving me all your love.I still love you.So very much.Im sorry :'( ILY&IMY sooo much~

(I percaya dengan statement ni.Source-Tumblr)

Itu aje pengalaman cinta I.I memang kurang bercinta sebab I ni seorang yang bukan mudah untuk jatuh cinta.Namun,ia tak menghalang I untuk bercinta lagi.Sekarang I tengah single.I nak jatuh cinta dengan you all boleh?Kehkehkeh :) Smile even your heart is cry.Okay babaiiiiii~

I Miss You

Taylor Swift-Back to December

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But If we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

p/s;Im so sorry NL.Truly I'm :'(

Couple :)

Dear readers,
Dah lama tak update blog kan?Busy *alasan semata-mata.Nak cerita pasal cinta boleh?Layan ajelah :)

Mula-mula kita bercinta.Kita sangat suka.First thing yang saya buat of course lah dating.Lama-lama dating pun takpe.Kita cool je walau berpeluh banyak-banyak.Haha *euwww selekeh.

Lepas dating kita boleh bercumbu *wakluuu.Boleh blah!Hahahahaha.Taklah kita pegi jejalan.Dekat ngan rumah je.Kenal diri masing-masing *amboiii adik kecik-kecik dah nak menyemai kasih sayang ye :)

Next,nak nyanyi satu lagu.Eh,tak banyak lagu.Lagu tidur,lagu happy,lagu sedih,Juara Lagu *eh silap :) Lepas tu,main gitar,main piano,main trompet.Then,join band.Hahahahahaha.

Dah besar sikit dengan tahap kita yang bersesuaian untuk keluar dengan izin parents,kita pergi bercuti.Mula-mula nak tengok matahari terbenam.Pegang tangan *nak kena sepak ke? Jalan-jalan round satu bandar.Best kan?Lepas matahri terbenam,tengok bulan.Lepas tu tak tidur.Mata lebam-lebam macam beruang panda.Kahkahkah :D

Lepas tu kan,kita cipta hobi yang kita minat yang sama.Photographer?Mungkin.Tak minat?Masak mungkin?Cuci baju?Tengok langit?Tanam bunga?Racing kereta?Hahahaha.Semualah kita buat.Boleh tengok siapa lagi gempak dalam hobi tu.Tapi snap pictures tu kan dapat cipta banyak kenangan *ceh,padahal nak kamera DSLR (ketawa lagi) ^____^

After that,pergi pantai.Buat ape?Tengok matahari terbenamlah *eyh tadi dah buat.So,tengok pantai ajelah.Tengok ombak.Tenang aje.Lepas tu,mandi mandi.Best kan?Tulis nama dekat pasir,kumpul seashells.Romantik sangat :D

Lepas tu,pergi pantai lagi.Sebab apa?Nak ambil gambar kenangan *tadi lupa ambil.LOL.Taklah,kita buat kerja bodoh jap.Ambil belon semata-mata nak terbangkan dekat pantai.Sangat bodoh kita :) Tapi syiook sebab kita boleh buat ringan-ringan *banyaklah kau! (kena sumpah seranah adelah)

Lepas tu,ukur ketinggian.Satu lagi aktiviti bodoh.Awak pendek,saya tinggi.So,kaki sayalah kena pijak.Sedap je awak diri atas saya *kononlah aku tinggi.Padahal pendek. Bukanlah ni kita pergi jejalan lagi.Bangkok kot.Tak pun London *ada hatilah kau ni.Nak pergi jauh-jauh.Tengok pemandangan negara orang sebab pepatah kata "jauh perjalanan,luas pemandangan".ROFL.

Selesai semua,kita kahwin.Dalam air ni.Best tak?Sebab ape?Sebab photographer tu suruh kita buat.Ikutkan ajelah.Kan dia yang shoot wedding kita :D So,tak payahlah marah dia.Dia buat job aje.Lemas?Taklah kan saya ada nak selamatkan awak *perasan,sendiri pun tak gheti berenang.

Itulah kisah kita semasa kita berkasih-kasihan :D Yeah,kita dah kahwin.Kan?Kan?Huahuahua *impian,angan-angan dan mimpi :)

p/s;Semua picture aku curik dari Tumblr :) Thanks to all pictures's owners *kau mampu ade perkataan pictures's owners?

PESANAN:Mind your attitude cause it shows who you are in the inside and outside.

Mine!

(Rainbow that define my feelings right now.Pretty isn't?.Source-Deviantart)

Hello&Salam.Omjayy.I feel overexcited.Yeah,my adrenaline keep flowing throughout my body.Idk why but I had this mixed feeling inside me.After watching drama on tv3,I feel sad and thrilled :) It so dramatic and I can feel that "act things".Plus great actresses such as Sheila Rusly and Umi Fauziah Nawi are also in the drama.Yeah,Im touched by the drama :D Hope this will win some awards later.

Secondly,I watched PP (private practise) on NTV7.Yeah,I dont have any Astro and whatsoever but hey,Im content with my life and not to forget Im happy to have television.Back to PP story,I love this series as well as GA (Grey's Anatomy).Both of the stories is all about doctors.Cool. Surgery,diseases,relationships and problems and you name it,all in that.Maybe changing for future career for myself to be doctor but its so ashamed Im not qualified for it.LOL :)

Next,seeing my cousin wedding at FB might as well make me wanna married.ROFL! ^___^ They're perfect each other and Im happy for them.Can't wait to see them.Congratulation btw for both of you.Get as many offspring as you can!*smiling* To Sep Iran&Lela Rahman may your marriage will last forever.May your love always grows stronger each day! :)

Fourthly,Im really layan my feelings tonight by listening to few slow ballads song.Make me feel comfortable.Really Im :) Past few days also Im listen to English songs that I've in my handphone long time ago.It feels so great and refresh to listen to these songs.

Thats all for today journal.I think I need to update my DA account but nahh feel lazy to do that.Furthermore,Im not into that art person and Im not good in editing.So,maybe I'll update later.

PESANAN:Your feeling can be good to yourself sometimes.So enjoy this good feeling as you gonna die tomorrow :D

Stuff

This post will not be included with any pictures.

This night I keep thinking why did I blogging?To express my emotions perhaps.Or maybe just to write.Yes,about anything.My life,fights,fairytale and nightmares.I think my blog is about myself.The way I portrait myself in life.I guess nothing much help me to take initiative to write.When I want to write,I will.Feel empty tonight.Well,I forgot that I'm alone.Currently listen to Taylor Swift-Back to December and I think I can relate to it.I have try my best to keep my blog alive.I did.And I still will.InsyaALLAH.

Never I thought in my life that cyber world will give a hard effect on my life.Addicted?No I think.It's just hurmm how should I put this in word?Bored I guess.Maintaining a blog need passion and well I don't have any.I know it's sound so dead to you all if you read this entry.Seems like I want to 'kill' my baby blog aite?I'm not.Maybe for time being.I wish my blog to be popular like others without any effort that I need to put.Well,I'm wrong.Guess zero effort aren't enough.Pfft.

Yeah,I know you guys will totally think what the heck I'm doing this entry.Well,fyi,I do express myself sometime.This is one of it.I don't know what to write next.Browsing people blog.Perhaps sleep infront of my lappie.Feel very sleepy but my eyes deny me from sleep.I keep writing to satisfy my wish to keep updating my blog.Thank you again for those who follows me and put my links in thier blog.Really appreciate it.Well,Im done talking and writing.So go ahead,piss me off,throw your angry at me cause I made you read my stupid thought.

PESANAN:I keep smiling eventough I hurt and feel down.

Hillarious

(Waterproof bed.Comfortable.Source-DeviantART)
I just came back from work and watching Korean movie on TV3.Its was fantastic.Gonna download it later :) After the movie end,my mommy ask me to help her and oh yeah she's just came back from the hospital yesterday (Thank you for those who pray for her health).You know what she trying to do?Ask me to move the mattresses.Yes,totally right.Not one but two huge mattress.She said that I can handle on my own,but I can't *laughing :D Man,the mattresses are heavy.Damn.LOL.

I moved the first mattress from her bedroom to my sista room.Yes,she did borrow the mattress from my sista cause hers is being laid under the hot sun.That's mean she try to JEMUR the mattress.It was very refreshing experience cause I ain't do that for a long time.Yes,moving mattress.So tired.I keep pushing while my mommy keep pulling.I push the mattress plus my mommy.Hahahaha.She's always complaint that I'm bullying her.And she laugh a lot.

Then I moved the second mattress.God,this is heavier.Indeed,my mommy mattress.So heavy.Then again my mommy pulling and I'm pushing.I kept push her again and again and she's said the same thing.Bullying her.And again she laugh and laugh until her tear drops.She's thinks that was so hillarious and I think the same too.We laugh until we done moving the mattress.Mommy,we had a great time today.Next time,I promise will help you again.Btw,thanks for the great chicken soup for meal :))

PESANAN:Sometimes we just can't expect happiness can be happen even with small incidents :)

Heart-aching

Ya,sangat sakit hati.Sebab apa?Datuk Lee Chong Wei KALAH.Sedihhh sangat².Selalu harap dia menang.

LEE CHONG WEI vs LIN DAN
Sangat sangat sedihhh.Apapun untuk Datuk Lee Chong Wei teruskann USAHA dan Jiayouuu!Untuk Lin Dan tahniahh!

High-school-things

Salam.Kembali buat blog.Bukan taknak,cuma sibuk sedikit.Setiap pertemuan ada perpisahan.Ia betul.Ia benar.Setiap perpisahan itu ada hikmah dan ia betul.Ia benar.Musim sekolah tinggi sudah habis.Budak² sekolah sudah mula bercuti.Saya?Ya,saya akan menghadapi satu peperiksaan besar selagi saya bergelar PELAJAR PRA-UNIVERSITI.Ya,saya ambil Tingkatan Enam sebab keputusan Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) saya kurang bagus.Tahun ini saya akan ambil Sijil Tinggi Pelajaran Malaysia (STPM) pula.Hari Jumaat tanggal 19 November 2010,hari yang paling bermakna.Sesi bermaaf-maafan dengan semua.Para pendidik dan rakan.Tapi sebelum itu,nak tunjuk yang saya masih seorang pelajar.




Ya,semua gambar diatas saya punya.Teringat dengan sekolah kan?Sangat hebat sebenarnya berada di sekolah,cuma sedikit bosan dengan peraturan.Saya akan merindui setiap saat yang saya lalui sepanjang saya berada di kawasan yang dipanggil sekolah.Dari tadika hinggalah sekolah menengah semua saya akan ingat.

Sempena semua ni,saya nak ucapkan TERIMA KASIH kepada mak ayah sebab bagi saya masuk sekolah.Tanpa mereka,saya tidak sepandai ini.Kedua guru-guru dan para pendidik yang pernah mengajar saya tentang erti ilmu dan juga rakan-rakan yang selalu memberi galakan serta kritikan.Pahit manis kita tetap bersama.Peperiksaan STPM ni,saya nak menzahirkan keikhlasan saya memohon jutaan maaf kepada;

Pn Zaleha bt Othman (Pengajian Am 1&2)
Pn Sahida bt Ismail (Sejarah 1-Ketamadunan)
Pn Tan Lay Giok (Sejarah 2-Malaysia&Asia)
Pn Siti Sharifah bt Mahmud (Ekonomi 1-Mikro)
Pn Aw Guat Mooi (Ekonomi 2-Makro)
Pn Norazura bt Mamat (Pengajian Perniagaan 1)
Pn Rahmah bt Musman (Pengajian Perniagaan 2)
Pn Thanaletchumi a/p Chelliah (MUET)

Kesemua mereka banyak membantu saya sepanjang saya menjadi pelajar Pra-U. Tidak lupa kepada guru-guru yang telah saya sakiti,mohon kemaafan. Rakan-rakan juga.Saya memohon seribu keampunan sekiranya dalam persahabatan yang telah kita jalinkan secara langsung atau tidak,saya telah berbuat salah,maafkanlah saya.Tidak lupa ilmu yang telah kalian ajarkan,minta dihalalkan.Semoga anda semua BERJAYA.

Broken Puppet

Well,Im in mess.Yes right now I felt very messy.School,car,money &exams driving me crazy and Im not joking bout that.Felt very sick lately and having pressure all the times.Guess this world become more mean these days.Writing mood is back but I felt very ultra busy with the exams.It sucks when we have to sit for exam to revise back what we've learnt.But I have to tho.

Yeah Im a broken puppet that cant be fixed.Try me,who knows you might be the first to fixed me.My heart is aching a lot thinking of YOU. Yes you.You know who you are.Im hurting here you see.If its bout that incident,Im really sorry.Please forgive me.If this is not enough,then to YOU dont even bother if Im dead.

School such a freak place to be at.Looking at the same things everyday,homeworks and all kind of stuffs make me sick.Very very sick.No air-conditioner and rules;Arghhhh,so terrible.Fyi,I dont hate school,but you know why.Another thing is car.Petrol,services and all things that should be done,I hate it so much!

Important things come and go.So does money.I think I'll not survived without money.Come on,its everything to me in this materialistic world.Even nice people can engulf their faith and become burglars just to struck richness.Well,its true that money is the root of evil,they say.So,GOD I beg you to make me a billionaire one day.Im sure that day will come.

doubleeyouu.teeeeee.eeeefffff

Perfect

Hey Dad,look at me,
Think back and talk to me,
Did I grow up according plan?
And do you think
Im wasting my time,
Doing things I wanna,
But it hurts when you
disapproves all along,"
-Perfect,Simple Plan-

Well,today I feel very frustrated.Because of what?Yeah because of them.They never ever gonna understand me.But Im not blaming them.Im a very complicated person,so I am very tough to handle.I never want to be like this but fate does me like this,so take me or LEAVE me. Im feel very hurt. Deep in my heart, Im always feel inferior toward others and I feel like Im such a dissapointment for them.I always cherish what I have and guess my cherishment doesn't mean anything.

Guys,if don't think I don't deserve here,tell me the truth.I don't want to be burden for YOU.It feels like taking my heart out when you telling me that.Really its hurt.Maybe I have not done enough,not putting much effort&just lay my body on sofa so it feel irritated to you and you keep say that you never need me.Well Im full of flaws,so don't expect me to be perfect :'(

"You can't change ME,
Cos we lost it all,
Nothing lasts forever,
I'm sorry
I can't be PERFECT!

Innocence

This innocence is brilliant,
I hope that it will stay,
This moment is perfeect,
Please don't go away.
-Avril Lavinge,Innocence-

Well,it's true when people say that "Good friends are like stars".Yesterday,at school,was one of things that could cheer me up.Ouh yeah.They're all kind souls.They deserves something good from God except for those who pretended.*Sigh* Well yesterday,when we all going back from school,suddenly my classmates wishing me an advance birthday song.Such a wonderful situation and I will never and ever forget it.

Secondly,this morning about one,two,three and even four in the morning,I received lotsa messages wishing me for my birthday.Thank you all.You're all such a fine friends.I really treasure what you guys have done for me.*Smiling* Keep doing everything beyond your limit and I'm sure you guys can do it.Very very much I trust you ♥

Thirdly,my one of my BFF,this morning gave me a present.He is very caring tough.Thank you to Rashed bin Amtenar for giving me a surprise.Thank you so much.Really hope all these situasion wouldn't fade away~~

Fourthly,today around 9-11am,March 13th 2010 at Hotel Selesa,Pasir Gudang Johor, Datuk Dr Sheikh Muzaffar Shukor came.Woah!For the first time I saw him.I even get to capture few pictures of him as well as shaked his hand.I got very lucky.So many people in there,he was good in his speaking as well as Malay.Our first astronaut is infront of my eyes.Walao!Perfect tough.Hope that he will visit again.Really hope so.These are the moments I would never ever forget in my life.Later I will post some of the pictures.

That all for now.Today is a happy&spectacular day for me.I wish that today's time would not be so fast.Those memories I remembered I will cherish forever.Thats all.See you again.OUT!Love ♥

Easy&Trouble-free Hope

Yeah I doomed for my PA II examination.Well it's not about the time (some of it maybe) it's about the whole critical think.It's absolutely cracked my mind.How I wish that time would turn back.My essay is sucks and my graph is a messy.Damn it!I hope that Pn Zaleha didn't being so sarcastic when the result come out.I wish PA II will be as easy as ABC and as perfect as 123.Adoii~~I kept thinking about it again and again.I had enough but my mind kept rewind it like a video tape :((


And one again I want to be free.Because this life is sucks.Yeah it's sucks like hell.With choir like a bitch and the teacher is bithcier,hell say effseeeyouuukayyy to my A*S!My emotions are now drooling that's why my words are litte bit harsh.Accept it.I gonna crazy for the next two weeks cause it's examination time.For me exam is like calling trouble to me.Imagine that you'd learned half of topics and it'll be test like 3 hours?Arghhh*stress*

Lots of love,
ARABFLUFFY =_="

Whipped archangel

Mood:Better
Listen to:Instrumental music

Its been a while now.Yeah this post should be posted last week on Wednesday,the day I came back from the competition.But I got so tired&&lots of works been going on,so I'd to postpone it.So the result of the "pidato" competition was long out and guess what? I'm lost Wth.I forgot my lines cause some inconvenient incidents.Haha.So the results was:

1)SMK Sri Kukup,Pontian
2)SMK Putra Sulaiman,Batu Pahat (If not mistaken)
3)SMK Sultan Abu Bakar,Muar


Nur Azizah I'm sorry for letting you down and thank you for giving me moral support.I really aprreaciate it.Your encouragement,style and support give my soul to stand on its feet again.Yes ist true "A friend in need is a friend indeed" (If not mistaken,haha)

Lots of love,
ARABFLUFFY ^^,

History

Mood : Tonnes of emotions
Listen to : Lady Gaga-Love Games

Duhh =_=" Tomorrow is my competition.My teacher keep pushing and force me.I know its for my best and chance to win,but I seem like can't take it.What should I do?I'm not used to sleep for any competition accept once and that's also with my BFF,Syed.Now Syed is not there,how can I survive?OMG.I know I have to do my very best and you know what I've tried enough but all the people can't take it.They said that I can do it better.I pray to GOD that I can do it and show my very very best tomorrow.Pray for me too k.


Its stress and its getting on my nerve.I hope to get any good place.But I glad my my other partner (well not partner act) do not do well.He's for English "pidato".I now feel like throwing and feel sick.What if I don't do good?What if I not sure what's the next line in my speech?What if?What if?Urghhhhh~~


Scared?Yes of course.Every competition in my life,I feel scared.It make me feel uncomfortable also.Zombie the best word to describe me at the competition.I hope that the other contestants doesn't good though.Haha.WTH~~I still hoping that.

EMOTIONSareUNSTABLE

Lots of love,
ARABFLUFFY ^^,

School Day

Well quite busy lately.Semua orang macam takde mood.Yelah penat 24 jam.Kerja tu rasanya macam tak habis.Lepas satu satu.Macam orang gila dahh.Presentation berlambak seyh.Penat nak siapkan.Assignment lagi lah dah macam gunung dipotong tumbuh balik potong aja tumbuh lagi.Adehhhh.Lepas tu ada pulak KOLOKIUM yang ntah pape ntah.Cari bahanlah,soal selidiklah.Then sempat lagi buat banner for hari kemerdekaan.Nak hias kelas lagi lagi and temanya of course hari merdeka takkan hari raya pulak kan.Haha.


Well oleh kerana banyak sangat kerja yang perlu disiapkan,maka kami (salah dahh) maka dengan sukacitanya saya mentakrifkan keadaan otak yang berserabut macam gambar kat atas nih.Hebat kan?Keserabutan ni membuat diri bak orang gila.Sebab tulah hari-hari dalam kelas memekak sampai cikgu pun bingit.Adalah sekali dua kena sound tapi lantaklah aku punya worldddd!Haha.Siap boleh nyanyi lagu Tamil lagi.Apa lagi semua Indian girls bersorak-sorak mintak nyanyi lagi.Syiokkkk sangat.Ni sebab rashedlah ni.Sibuk cari lagu tamill.Syed aku dah infected skali.Aku minat Siragugal&&Unnale Unnale.

Muthal muthalaga,muthal muthalaga,
paravasamaga paravasamaga,
va va va anbe"
-Unnale unnale-

Hah ni lagi satu kes yang buat aku gerun.Influenza A H1N1.Perghh.Makin lama makin meningkat.Sampai perhimpunan setiap pagi tu dibatalkan.Muhaahahah.Best jugak.Dah aku kena pakai mask tu.Sesak nafas aku dibuatnya.Cakap pun susah.Cikgu² semua dah start pakai.Sebattt aje.Perghh takut giler kalau kena.Susah ni.Dengar cita dari cikgu aku tu ubat dia mahal.Importlah katakan.Kalau tak silap nama dia thamine flu.Tapi cikgu kata orangputih dah lama guna ubat tu untuk lalikan demam.So bila pakai takda kesanlah.Kalau Malaysians tak tau lagi.Entahlah bukan aku scientist pun nak fikir bende² ni.


Hah yang penting segala-galanya perlu diubah.No more assignments and no more works.Nak relaxx aje.Fuhh.Blaja pun tenang.Takdelah kelam kabut sana sini.Hilangkan penat&stress yang terlampau ni.Jom nyanyi lagu,

ABCDEFG,
HIJKLMNOP,
QRSTUV,
WXYZ,
Now I know my ABC,
Next time would you sing with me.
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