Feelings,

My feelings;ouh it keeps changing in a thought. Last two nights I kept thinking. Know what? My feelings define me in many ways.

MY FEELINGS AFTER LEAVING THE SCHOOL

When I thinking about school;

I feel sad :( I miss my friends especially those whom are my best buddies.Really, its true. Eventhough only one year we were together, we never separate like this (except when ahbey moved). Its hurt me without all of you. I can hardly laugh like the way I used to. Guys, you're still in my heart. Its difficult for me to let all of you go. But I pray that you guys will find your success in your life.

When I think about SPM;

I feel nervous. OMG, what if my result are bad? Oh I cant accept it. How do I confront with others?Relatives? When taking SPM its pain, when waiting for the result, it even more pain. Arghhh! I hope that I can get a very proud result :)

When I think about my good result;

I feel happy. Yup, totally. If I grow a tree, the hardship to help the tree grow will be my attempt. Then, the tree produce fruits and it will be my result. If it ever happen, I want to thank my family,teachers and friends for help me to achieve this result. THANK YOU very much :)

When I think my good result will help me to enter university;

I feel scared. Im afraid that people will dislike me and not accept for who I really are. I also scared that I cant cope my studies, thus making me hard to get a good pointer. I scared that people will start talking about me and look down upon me. I cant imagine if one day Im entering a university, people will stared at me. It got me sweating and I dont like it. I hope everthing will be as smooth as I plan when I enter a university =)

When Im thinking I got 4-flat;

I feel jubilant :D I will be the most exciting man in the whole world. My half dream will come true. And when it keeps going like that, Im sure that I will achieve top students and its easy for me to achieve my goals in my life. I pray to GOD to make all my dream come true :)